A Beautiful Sunday

Went to PH with the gers last nite... Edna's advance bday celebration...cut my leg... thx to te auntie who was delivering the ice i think... she simply juz force her way thru the tiny passageway where we were standing...
dear dear met me for dinner b4 tat at sakae... thn cab to his wrk place thn off to meet my gers... it would be so nice if he were there with me ytd nite... think i will njoy myself even more... hmmm... missing him again...
i head home quite early think at abt 2 plus cuz i juz wanna reac home cal him... was abt to go slp thn stomach start to ache... woke daddy mummy up n we went searchng for 24 hours clinc... saw the doc at abt 6plus 7... cost me $84...=(
But wat ever it is... i'm ok now le... dear noe i'm sick thn he nv straight away go home bathe le buy breakfast for me... so sweet of him... but poor him didn't get enuff slp... he acc me till like 2 thn head to his scoccer game till i think abt 7 bah...thn he go home bathe thn off to wrk again... poor him... sorry dear for troubling u... n thx for the care n love tat u've given me too... i love u...=)
ending here... continueing y study for tmr exam le...

I'm In Love

I dunno where to start... but I've throw away the unhappy, suffocating Angeline Lee... Yeah... I've finally decided to let go... after so many years...

Now... a brand new Angeline Lee... Finally met my Prince... How should I put it.. hmmm... the feeling that he give, is really different... I feel so protected, so loved with him... This kinda feeling... nv had once in my life... he was asking me y??? with my ex??? I dunno.. this feeling juz had nv hit me before... Maybe I'm always the one who try to sustain the relationship... a one sided thing... till now i'm unsure too...

To My Prince MT2==> Thanks for loving n caring for me.. U make my everyday now... but pls dun always give in to me kk... u still can go ahead n do the things u want my dear...
Love u loads...<3

Should I Move On????

I dunno...I'm not happy now... Even a very normal sms from a guy colleague I'm also afraid to let him c... Going home everyday have to think is there any sms that he will suspect me for nth... whether wat i wear today pass his criteria... sleeveless fails... shorts fails... I am so tired to be wary and on alert all the time... All monkeys are like that???

He nv move... he always say he did so many things for me... y did't i feel he's doing it for me...? i really can't feel anything... he said he changed his temper cuz of me... hmmm... isn't that a prob he should kick..?

he dun like me to go out... be it after wrk or on my off day... reason being my health is not good... should stay home and rest... when i stay home, he expect me to be his maid n do all the housework... where's my rest??? my illness all came to me cuz i'm coop in this house lor...

I'm on mc today... thou very tired... but i still come to wrk on the second half of the day... i dun wanna stay home... he's even complaining that even if i'm home he dun feel my existence... does it means with or withour me ir will be the same??? in this case y like me stay?? y hold on so tightly and refuse to let go??? Y is there just no trust from u???

I am afraid if this were to carry on... I will leave u sonner or later... I'm sorry... but i learn how to be selfish from u... to treat myself better... to love myself more thn anyone else...

First Step for a better us...

first day back at mama house... daddy came to fetch me... i brought shasha along... hope everything will be better for us... Trying hard...

Bei bei... I washed my own plate after eating... good ger hor... i scare i'm not use to slping without u... but i got bring my "smelly" bao bei with me... keke,,,

Bei bei... I jia youing... miss u lots lots...

waiting for genting trip...

thou financial isn't tat good for me... but still i will pull through de... things will get better... I always believe...

Too Fast

Everything moves and happen too fast... too fast to the extend i haven even react and its over.. I dun even get to feel it and its gone..

Could time slow down??? could everything move slowly??? things will be so beautiful........

Feeling Alive

Thou been bz n time is like always not enuff... at least I'm feeling some accomplishment...

Closed a 21k deal today and I'm like super happy... durian drop lah...haha... thx nel nel for helping me with tat thick stack of application...

Weekend... went to mango with nelnel, her husband, Amanda and beibei... was surprise beibei will go... but still thx beibei... I enjoyed myself... Feeling Blissful... aftermath to Mustafa... shop awhile... thn once home KO...

Went to c Ethan Xavier ytd... OMG he's so cute lah... he's gonna be a handsome chap whn he grow up... Eyes so big already for a 2days old him... oh ya... he's our AM's son... Wc to this beautiful world...=)

ok... shall end her for now... am enjoying food at my mum's place...

some pics to share... Enjoy...=)

Ethan Xavier

Amanda, Nelnel n me... lol... i dunno y so small...keke

The Stronger I am shows the most Vulnerable me

Had a great day at East Coast with Nel Nel, her daughter, her husband and phy... Hazel came down later oso...

Sweating after work out is nice... haven sweat like this for so so long le...

I just dun understand... going east coast means have to go back early...? can't u just let me enjoy myself rather thn keep thinking getting home abit late n get prepare to c u angry...

u wanna control me... control who i go out with... where i'm going to... and oso my timing... i nv really enjoy myself at ease for so long... i always need to be so cautious of wat i do so as not to make u angry...

I've said many times... wat i need is trust... u always say u trust me... but nv at all... if u trusted me u will not be affected with the slightest thing... u can quarrel with me with the slightest thing...

I just need the trust... will u grant me the trust??? i dun wan to be suffocated... i can't breathe anymore...